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markfx (0)
Active User Posts: 21 Registered: Sep 28, '09 Location: Oakland, Ca |
I write this as a warning; if it does not apply to you, please move on. Porn, especially internet porn, can be a very isolating activity. I know for me it has taken the place of a meaningful relationship for many years. Of course I did not plan for that to happen... It was all very innocent for a long time. I didn't really miss the human element that would accompany a regular sexual relationship. However, that all changed when i stumbled across the live sex chat rooms of LiveJasmin. Now I had the opportunity to 'interact' with another human being during 'sexual' encounters. Many of the models there seemed very pleased to chat with me, laugh at my banal banter, and appear very happy to see me online. Soon, I had a list of favorites I would patiently wait for to come online. I also became a compulsive tipper, simultaneously making myself feel generous and helping out the 'poor' models who were constantly subjected to objectification by other members and guests. I had an early warning, which I naively ignored, when a model offered to chat with me on YM. She needed a new cellphone, about 400 euros, could I help her? Well, I ran from that model; but the personal interest she 'showed' in me was very intoxicating. I found other models who were more cunning in their craft. Of course none of the hot models had boyfriends or husbands; many were in school, and I could not help but feel sorry for their economic plight. This was the only way they could make a viable living, most appeared to dislike what they were doing: I felt good giving them money through the site. But what happened was I now longed for the personal relationship that the chat room only feigned. I waited for literally hours and spent $1000's of dollars to get close to these girls. Intellectually, I knew there was no future there, but emotionally I was hooked! Candidly, I am still caught up in the drama there! regards, Mark | |
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